Sunday, November 21, 2010

I found these words makes people want to fall in love & to be loved again

One step for betterment

First of all, I would declare that these ain't my word art and this poetry/quotes/song is taken from a Hindi movie. I would comment and discuss about the movie later in the next post so if you ain't have any idea from which it is taken, you'll know it soon.

This love is a dream for every girl in this planet and with sincerity and true love may we have it. Don't want to fret further, I present you, the ecstasy.....  

"the fragrance on your breath is me, how ever will you stop..not breathing?" 

"I felt god himself had blessed me..when all he did was to address me"

"I don’t live a life of the selfless, nor do I grab another’s wine…………if he has loves let he comes and declares it…to ask him... to follow him, I decline"

"I gave up complaining my master about you, for he is the most smitten by you, by far."

"Your voice is like a thunder in a storm, your smell is just like the earth after the first rain and you yourself is like a prince in a beggar clothing"

"I can’t explain the way of this market to you, he who is sold can’t ever be a buyer anew"

"The fire is in the sun but it’s the Earth that does the burning, the eyes fall in love, but it’s in the heart that does the suffering"

"Look at me up close, imbibe me in every way, just in case your fate has another card to play"

"If by mistake I have made a mistake, then please consider it a mistake and forget it. But only forget the mistake even by the mistake don’t ever forget me"

"You should love a prince, not a devil like me- it’s too late. Now this devil is my prince"

"If not for the rest of our life, we can spend the next 12 hours together, can’t we? Perhaps that’s all we have"

"Don’t come close to me, the storm will destroy you – I’m not destroyed in your storm, I am rejuvenated"

"May my life’s breath find refuge in your heart, destroyed in your love may my life depart"

"Never again will the winds be this shameless, never again will our steps falter so blameless"

"But this life without you is no life anyway"

"What if I let my heart life in your eyes? What if I close my eyes and punish your heart?"

"Our hearts are tremble when they meet, like they were never apart for even a beat"

"When I have your hands in mine,  I have with me the heavens divine"

"I have given you a lot of pain, still I am asking you to fill my wounds but I stand before you with the hope that you will forgive me"

"My breath was incomplete, heartbeat was incomplete, incomplete was I..Now the moon is full, complete in the sky and now with you complete am I"

p/s: Now you're scared

Allah knows best

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Perfect Flaws..A reason to double the love shot

One step for betterment

This isn't an intended lame joke...We naturally cracks it and the fun isn't belong to yours's ours..

Script 1

Maryam :     aaliyah mati sbb pesawat trhmpas..
Tikah     :     owh dia mati 4-5 thn lps..sbb pe?cancer ke?


Script 2

Maryam :     tikah, cite anaconda da x?
Tikah     :     ha?cite aruna?

Script 3

mak reen :   maryam tahu tak ni ulam apa?
maryam   :   ah, tak tahu.
mak reen :  ni tenggek burung
maryam   :  haa...eek uu??
 (dalam byk2 huruf dlm tuh eek ngan uu  jer dia dengar??)

Script 4

maryam : farah, ubat 2 wrna kuning
farah     : eh xla, farah x pening

Script 5

apek : nk plstik cover x?
farah : owh, xpe..
* sbnrnya apek 2 tnya bdk lain nk binding n nk buh cover plastik x.Mase tuh reen ngan maryam kat sebelah kot

Script 6

pekedai : nk plastik x?
reen      : sama2..dh byr dh td..

Script 7

maryam  : jom tipon Sahol
bazla      : bleh je klu nak 2nd round..
maryam : eh x nk la repeat.
bazla     : eh xla..bleh je nk mndi 2nd round.
maryam : ha?
bazla     : ha la, kn nak main sabun 

Script 8

tikah : bpe bungkus ni? 
farah : gna 2 kari, 1 ayam
tikah : owh, bape bungkus ni?
farah : 2 kari, 1 ayam ( secara perlahan 20 km/j)
p/s: bahana nk save saliva n masa..

Script 9

reen : tayammum 2 pkai debu tanah yg suci kn. nape taymmum kna pkai debu?
tikah : sbb debu sumber yg xkn abes , bak kata ust fauzi.
reen  : klu ujan, mcm mna nak cri debu?

* Krikit-krikit ( sume perah otak fikir  kot)
maryam :klu ujan xyah la tayammum

 (rase suma cam bongok sgt)

P/s: Seha ngan najah, jaga la korang, tk lame gi msk gak dlm list cript nih =p

Allah knows best

You & I together

One step for betterment

It just an updates about us.....We've been together since that and I always pray for the togetherness now and hereafter.....Some updates about us will then unleash the memory we shared...there's many ups and downs in the sailing boat, we laugh like witches and we cried like a baby. The hard times is tough to endure and it's painful but we have believe and trust, a trust that people change, You & I changed for the better and I am thankful for you in believing in me and never give up. I have had my swings and yours. We know it's a challenge to please us but we know we tried our best, thus we survived. This is a my pouring heart to heart, I might never able to said it verbally but I hope this writing will let you know how I really felt. I'm blessed for this togetherness.

Well, yeah, the updates.
We have gone for goood just after the Educational Psychology exam at the end of the day. It's all well planned since days before that. We are going to hit Alamanda Putrjaya for the celebration. (i still have one final paper..=p ). I have never beeen there and we planned for enjoy the eateries and bowling. Well, that's the plan. So, after the prayer, off we go. 

It took us about 1 hour to reach Alamanda Putrajaya. It's a breath taking nature beauty for a city like this. I want to have a house there.hhehe..we are totally in a great hunger, seriously like haven't eating since morning and having the first meal of the day is just like living again after the death. we ate sizzling yee mee and some juice. w fancy to try a bite for the famous waffle. (we did't make it, kenyang sangat makan tadi). 

Unfortunately for us, the bowling center is full and there's a tournament to be held after the 8.00pm. All the way to here is for bowl and Alamanda let us down. Thinking of the other alternatives....movies....erk, nope, definitely just wasting all the money and fuel just to glued our eyes on the big stupid screen. =p. So, we decided to go to arcade and have some fun there. Haaha.....the little kids we've become...I've never played it before and it's quite fun..just for some minutes but it's fun. Then, finally we decided to take a walk around the area of Putrajaya...It think Luck didn't charm us that night..All the street light were off leaving just the main lamps just to light the, my friends said the best part of Putrajaya is the night view with the sort of fancy street lamps and the fountain. And we didn't get both. How interesting is that, all the way to this place. 

The climax of our activity, out of the box and my thinking...was playing at the playground..and walk near the's dark and cold night.....but we found that it's the finest entertainment for us.....again, all the way from shah alam just for a playground??? hehe, dumbstruck. But, that's it. Maybe there's next time and by that time, no plan! coz it's  surely crashed. Yeah, I haven't yet mention that it's our third attempt to go bowling. Some days ago we planned to go Ole-Ole for bowling but it's full...then we straightly changed our location and went to Sunway. (it's quite pricey but still affordable for us)....then what, there was a tournament held and end up us to a casual hang out and food catch at Laksa Shack. See, patah la hati....

here some of our pics~!!

AT THE LAKE.....=]


 I can't bear to show the pics at the playground.....hehe....let it just be our memory... :)

Hey, thanks darlings...I am appreciated.

Allah knows best

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Security seems far from good

One step for betterment

We are already in the exam mood.It started yesterday.people are busying themselves with books and notes here and there but us..still attending classes. Like today, educational psychology lecturer made all the 3 groups in  to be in the hall for some lecture (last lecture) and distributing he on going marks...And I keep saying this to people


because we've never have lecture in class with all three groups in one time....for this semester. so it's like a tesl gathering...pre gathering before the final

my exam dates are just like a "toto" number:

which are......
31/10 - Applied phonetic & phonology
3/11   - Educational psychology
8/10   - Micro-counselling

wish me and all my friends for 'najah' with excellence in the exam.....

as I've checked the list of on going marks I've's not a satisfying result....I screwed up a lot and 3.5 didn't seems to securely safe in my palm for this semester......I don't have too much expectation for my future result...only hoping to maintain the 3.5 pointer....Ya rabb, yassir wala tua'ssir fil imtihan3x...AMEEN

Allah knows best

p/s: i'm freaking scared at the moment

Thursday, October 21, 2010

The sky is bright and so is the life

One step for betterment

I've read a wonderful post from my friends' blog..I'm very delight to see that how Allah bring his light to a person through a person..the person must be one amazing being. You know, when a life is touched by someone to reform into such a positive, better way...the person is something..May Allah lay His endless blessing to her in touching one's heart to be nearer to Allah...One thing we should believe...God is equal..He settled us upon something or with something/someone for a reason..which will turn out for good or bad. but nevertheless, if it is something bad...there should be a blessing in disguise...people CAN change..The good might turns bad in 10 years time....and vice versa....the most challenge part is when someone wants to be become a better/good person...there will be a tricky way...and varied test of patience and friends...some..little of them  might look at one like a jerk...with a look like "yeah right..i don't believe in you to be thaaat good"...Ouch.. some will also will try to their best in ensuring that the person still belong to their group of people....
Man, He tested us in many way..not to kill the spirit but as a test to see how deep is the desire to become the man of the religion...with firm belief and faith in Allah.. whatever it is...good friends will celebrate his/her friend's reformation for good and with many prayers to Allah..may He will give strength to him/her and for us to be always in Mardhatillah...

'Dinul Islam Abadan Abada' 

Allah knows Best

p/s: I still wonder how the person knows my blog and read about the post..i'll never deliver the hate post again...for good. I'll take your critics for good but it still a mystery how on earth you know my blog. the bottom of it..I'm no longer mad at you....I've delivered the company's proposal according to the list you gave, just stop shouting at me again. =]

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

say hello~!

One step for betterment

We can never satisfied every soul for liking us...not everybody will be liking the way we are....
if we keep listen to others to be what they want us to be..what's the real point of living your life?

when I got mad to's not to be forever....people can forever hate me as their wish and I'll give and the one who is offended is (sapa mkn cili dia rasa pedas)..

i guess it's better to ignored those and be what you always should be....

if I ever hurt anyone...sorry..I'll try to fix it if i'm the one who did mistakes.... me hate me say what you want about friends know me best~!

Sunday, October 17, 2010


One step for betterment

Hating you from the bottom of the heart

i wish not to see your face for the rest of my life...ever again..

Hate your eyes when you looked at me when talking....

as if I'm a pest, and you're the holier.....

don't you ever dare to talk to me again...

with that tone and look...i'll be forever hating you...

no peace for us for now

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

A guitar and the song

One step for betterment

Last night and the rest of the day will specially stored as most memorable, blissful life for me...Enjoy much of your present and most off all, the many unknown things you've well sealed.....and successfully discovered.
the first strum of your left me in awe....and you're keep saying not really good at talking's an extraordinary talent I've met..this is another, you can't read chord...but a wonderful are as special as the way you are... annnnnd just another amazing person I've met. thanks for the song and the's sweet..real sweet...if you've realized or not, many hearts have touched by you and yeah, hoping to hear your compose again =]]]

you're so shy and it's doubling mine

p/s: I'll keep this as one will know a scratch 'bout this. ^^,

Allah Knows Best

Sunday, October 10, 2010

stop whining people

One step for betterment

Weekend would be the best for a study break out.....and I'm sipping every moment with it..
I went to KL for a visit to my uncle house + open house+ hanging out with some friends and was on Saturday...only by late at night, I had arrived to Shah Alam...overnight at 21's house due to the late night arrival. thanks to their company, we didn't slept until it was 2am..Erm...lots of updates to catch up. Early in the morning, I went for a breakfast with 21, as the others still snoozing (tk bangun dari kubur lagi =] ) .Only an hour after that, I walk back to my house....not that early morning breeze.

The next day, together with my house mates, we convoyed to Reen's as she is having an open house. Thanks god I wasn't at home last night, Reen, Yam and Farah were camping at Reen's for that purpose..our house surely  a creepy old antic boring rented house without their presence. Man, I love convoy..together, 3 cars tailed and Khai's is the most outrageous i think..the satria neo with turbo engine was a cool wheel to ride on the highway..
reaching her house, we ate everything eyes could roll at. cranky jokes really killing us with madness laughter...her mom joined the crowd as well! Owh my,....stories after stories...we just can't stop laughing, hardly breathing. it was a magnificent Sunday for me and for others as well.

Hey, many are whining around about their piles of unsettled assignment.....there isn't that much if you start early...for someone over there...stop using the excuse of settling assignment to stay up /overnight at McD or anywhere else....because you haven't settled what my eyes could see...a lot of distraction is the big advice, go to somewhere you can focus to do work but not something else...good luck...
(the other people also attached to many commitment.....but that's not an excuse of not settling academic work)

Amazing people...Amazing life....Expected challenges.....

p/s: good luck in exam people!!

Allah knows best

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Believe in my destiny

One step for betterment

My heart beats..with unusual beating....
whatever it's called....
I'm thinking of..

....getting married

I really know it's worth waiting....may Allah takes me into another beautiful phase of life....
again....I's really worth waiting


Allah knows best

Friday, October 8, 2010

200th ...and never have enough

One step for betterment

The one I'm currently writing is officially my 200th post..Impressed?? bigger than a dot. I rarely updates my blog and there's isn't a reason for that..most of the time whenever I feel the urge to pen something, the lappy isn't with me and the idea just floating..circling as the inner thought..

I'm running out of my time doing many of my favourite part time job- Roti Impit Ayamas at the faculty, also as a fully in charge of the head of Sponsorship department in "THE COOK" tour which will be held insya allah early next year at UKM..we only have precisely 3 months left before the due date. For further understanding what the heck of this program is...asks the holy google who always answer everything. Apart of this, there's still a few assignments left....and time is running out...

I have settled:
a) Phonetic transcription project....(my part)
b) counseling verbatim (as same as drama script)..
c) Report Writing (my part)

I haven't yet settle:
a) Arabic drama script...few amendment to be done as advised by the lecturer
b) Educational psychology case study

As I had mentioned, "my part". This means that in order to settle everything, I have to wait for the others to compiled a complete work. I hope everyone is doing their job and best in stealing time for accomplishing the assignment. I want us to get great score to secure the fortune A. 

As for my course, I haven't yet become a top scorer student, didn't crave for it but if getting one is the full icing on the cake. I'm just the still a fortunate dean's list receiver..What is the most important to me is to maintain the 3.5 CGPA. Least interest in racing for a 4.00 pointer. "five-point someone" is the best novel that have changed and awaken my perspective towards the aim in academic lane. To fully enjoy your life as student and really learn the entire course is far more important that mugging books for the sake of A+ and zero knowledge in it. Many of us just like a machine....pressured by the fact of learning something new because it means more to cram and even much memorize..we aren't pressure cooker, take it easy people. 

Another thing about academic life....many of us are one real disguise or clearly portrayed. for those who are vividly known as the intelligent, I pay no attention for their best performance as I know it's them...but one that I really adore is the hush hush brilliant that rarely or never get the spotlight. They are the type that what I call "the silencer" speak less and listen more....even some might be labelled as the passive and loser with the capital'll be freakin' surprise how they shine in tests..simply said, they nearly beat the top was that? when it comes from "the silencer", it was celebrated with a huge applause..from us....they are one great brainy one hardly notice their presence, but a starlight they have become. one great thing about them too is they are not bothered to scream the victory...not even fussy to boast around telling the world how great the marks they nailed. I like the down to earth attitude and people like you even more when you're modest with the exceptional talent. there's one big lesson lies behind



Kudos to ilman, zuhairi for their outstanding marks in phonetic and phonology and not to forget..educational psychology. Have you read their answer? you should have done it..
me?? I'm satisfied with mine...but..but...I'm not the top scorer...hehe. 

 Allah knows best

p/s: I skipped an international tennis tournament invitation where the ticket price is RM169..I heard Jay Shawn and other big stars are performing....well, who's them who're famous, not me...I wish I could give my ticket to you if you're one BIG tennis fan...(how on earth I got it? thanks to KESAT)

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

My ugly story..which belong to theirs

One step for betterment

My heart rains....but who knows

I want to rant lots of thing..
off from this page please if you think you are the one I'm gonna bite
Mind of nauseated words you've never heard of before...
Best to pour everything here as if I'm not, I'll stuck forever with this such suck/infuriating/ feeling...It pealed me off~~

hush..........this isn't juicy gossips to tell the world...mind your own business anyway

patience isn't the best virtue this time

What a friendship is about? i think I almost unrecognized the significance of best/good friend. there's no more for us....maybe we better of this way...having a boyfriend quite a huge concrete wall for our togetherness. Like, you want more and more time spending with him, leaving of alone..on the beginning, I thought I'm okay with, yeah, go for it...I don't mind..even though deep inside I surely upset someone had stealing the precious I love most...days past...months left..I realized she isn't into us anymore, it's all about him...somehow I am stored in the recycle bin memory..Jealousy?? Only god knows. I like the guy and I adore their love bond....but, I damned hurt....neglected and pushed away...nak ajak keluar hujung minggu pun da susah...sebab nak kena fikir pasal si dia takut nanti kot2 dia nak ajak keluar....kalau tak dulu boleh jer, gi mydin ke, giant ke same2...tapi sekarang,suma dengan dia....sapa tak kecil hati....I tak pernah cakap, hurm...sebb tak tercapai akal kot....sayang dia...tak nak dia kecil hati..rasa kekadang macam mengada jugak..tapi memang itu yang dirasa...kami dah jauh....

kekadang agak kurang berkenan dengan buah hati tu..sebab dia suka nk pegang tangan kawan I....biasa lah lelaki, their intertwined their fingers for he asking for it...she knew I didn't really much like it (da pesan dah..kalo kapel..kalo boleh tak yah la pegang tangan)...but's you know, it's quite hard to resist or say no if the one you love whisper the song of love to you....of course it's irresistible....(for some). okay, nak wat camna,biar lah camtu, dah  suka sama suka..I'm off the line. she changed quiet a do I..hurm..I hope she is more like the old days....well, maybe she might think the same about me...I think we both hurt but didn't say anything about it, let it rottens ourselves up. I lead my own might be better to explore more out there... independence is my stick to help me walk....through the hardness of bitter reality. Just move in then...I guess...still, how can I hate her, love is still there although it isn't the same anymore.... 

Next, it's also about a girl...just another girl. obsession towards anything she likes. She is rather someone with obsessive compulsive disorder...towards the living. Owh my, I know that some people won't be easy with me and try as much of avoiding me for our own good...(this make me sound like devil? I dunno). Here's one uphill request for her..."let the one who you like a lot get her own space too...if she wants to be close to any friends she loves, let her's pity to see her stuck almost every moment with you"...quite a control freak. Tak perlu lah nak tarik muka masam cam **nuk hanya sebab tak dapat ikut kawan yang dia raapppaaat sangat....rimas. 

hurm....more freak things I said about another, makes me even uglier....
I should stop......for now

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Raya aidilfitri 2010

One step for betterment

Hari Raya terbaik sepanjang zaman. Satu ungkapan yang boleh menjelaskan sambutan syawal kali ini...alhamdulillah opah sangat sihat dan masih muda ceria, sengal pon ada..walaupun dah mencecah umur 79 tahun tahun nih..ya, opah saya..Mahiyah Binti Alang Ahmad, sangat dekat di hati=]

opah teridur kejap...hehe mane ade

potret keluarga 7 orang dari 12 beradik
Apa yang menyebabkan raya tahun nie sangat bermakna?? Jom selongkar....

1. Opah masak lemang fan dodol durian yg sangat lah sedap....bakar lemang dua kali yer....ngan cucu2 sekali

2. Orang pahang semuanya balik kampung. susah diorang nak balik sebab kilang roti yg nak kena jaga tuh..tapi tahun nie syukur semua dapat balik..siap bawak ikan patin berekor2 lagi...segar dari pahang...woww..tambah pulak dengan suma pastri dan roti dari kilang....heaven!! roti oh roti

3. Acik udin (bju kuning gelap) bru ja dapat baby girl. anak merdeka~!!! tahniah..anak sulung tuh

4. Tahun ni suma famili tangkap gambar keluarga setiap satu...wat rakaman ala2 tv 9 la...kte kak syahrul nak antar kat angah n along bila siap edit nanti =]]..... 

5. Banyak 'updates' berjaya dikumpulkan dengan semua sepupu sepapat tuh~!!

6. Jumpa Eby (dalam pangkuan ..), Alif, alia, syafiza...dan si kenit si kenit yang laen...jadi baby sitter =]]..

7. Rasa ikatan keluarga ini setakat inilah...membahagiakn....seronok sangat. rumah kecoh tk berhenti2...maklumlah ramai suara versi loud speaker..

Eby dah makin besar,dia la yang paling tikah sayang, seronok sembang ngan budak ni, bijak...aish, geram p0n ade jgak..comel sangat....

kalau kat umah opah abis gula-isytihar darurat la jawabnya...mana tak mau, stok 20Kg pon tk cukup nk gna wat air oren sunquick....keluarga besar...memang camtuh...
tak kisah la baju baru atau tidak, tak kisah la ada lemang ke tidak sebab yang paling penting semua dapat kumpul bersama2....

sebab kita tak tahu, bila mungkn ajal kita nanti, mungkin kita, mungkin mereka pergi dulu, sayangilah yang tersayang selagi hayat di kandung badan..


p/s: akan lebih kerap menggunakan bahasa ibunda kelak~!

Allah knows best

Tuesday, September 7, 2010


One step for betterment

In the sheer rejoice of holiday, Raya celebration
I know, many of muslim out there and maybe here anyway is sobbing for the ending phase of Holy Ramadhan...month of kareem..month of forgiveness
soo, farewell then...As for me, it's not a proper goodbye though, because honestly, although not in favor to admit this, I haven't managed to make the good use of the blissful and prosperous opportunity to repair and fix my duty as a good servant to Allah...poor me, because I fail to help myself in preparing the 'box to hereafter' and time is running out..
In that prayer, which is the last tarawih prayer...

Imam made a special supplication that is said as a completion of the Quran recitation (30 juzu').

I can see....many makmum are crying....
even the small lads are sobbing...
the Imam supplication is heart wrenching..I told you...
His tone of sadness, hope and full of regret makes the nature mourn together in silent darkness..
it's in the prayer.....
the language is arabic, they understand everything said......
They are really into the prayer....
Now I was my's never like their....I'm ashamed

As I'm writing this post, I'm watching tarawih prayer from Masjidil isn't boring at all, yes fella..the quranic recitation is very tranquil to a heart...the tv also included the meaning of each recitation in English for a complete understanding. It heals me well I think, from the unsettled worldly issues and sinful deeds I have done. Hmm, have you ever thought that a western-muslim-converter seeks islam because of the knowledge about the Islam itself....those are derived from the educated. I mean, they see Islam not through the people (as we know many are damaged and least islamic way of life) but by the study about the religion itself. Contrary to this, malay-christian-converter dragged themselves out of Islam due to the worldly reasons lay behind it. It's not about they found the real truth of one religion they want, because it offers and fulfill their wants and desire....I'm not generalizing this statement but most of the reason laid in that.

Islam serves what a human need..

It's never fulfilling their every wanting

Because....many are directed by lust...

Lust that pull people to astray

Astray is the goal of the always-loser-satan

Islam makes its people a winner

In a directed path

A directed path is always bitter, least exciting and full of test

The path, at the end of the tunnel shines with brightest light 

The light towards Jannah, the end of all misery...everlasting

p/s: A cage of butterfly in my tummy...something to do with raya perhaps

Allah knows best