Thursday, April 21, 2011

When life is just being dramatic

One step for betterment

I hate the word busy. I restrain myself of not using the word. B-U-S-Y. I am not busy, it just that I’m loaded with lots of work. I’m easily irritated with those who claimed they are busy when in fact they are not that busy but playing with time to the last minutes work. What the...... There is time for us to arrange everything right, the matter of willingly to do it or to sacrifice something for it or not.  Let say if you had a lot of work to be settled that day and still have other things to do. Why not just cut your sleeping time to manage the work. The busiest man for me is Prime Minister. If you’re a Prime Minister, indeed you’re busy. What busy meant for students is a lot different to the Prime Minister. What we do mostly studying, leisure with friends and trivial business. This goes for most students. MOST, I mean for those who didn’t have any other responsibility than be a student. Time flies fast and makes my life a little hectic. My regular routine now should be divided for time as student, faculty affairs and university affairs. The three portion of management put me into running mode all the day. With the new scheme of working, I better fix my management skills and yes, I am still learning it. To put study first, leadership now is my aim. Everything happens is with reasons and a challenge to endure. Balancing is important, yeah it is. I try my best to maintain my credibility in my work as well as my reputation as a good student. So far, I able to manage well my study..this refers to the first test done for all subjects. For the second test, I don’t really have faith what is the outcome. I am quite worried if my study now for the result may not turn up as what I wishfully hope. I only hope that I can maintain the DL since my first semester and achieve the ANC at the end of my study. I don’t care what the others accomplished in their study, I only concern mine yet, best of luck to my friends.  

There is more pain and tears than happy, lovely life as a student representative. You hold back your painful feeling and taking care of others more than your life. To endure the pain alone is much more frustrating, fortunately I have my angels all along with me in joy and tears. When I feel like the whole world against you and be neglected, rejected, unwanted from others, images of my parents and family and my angels fly through my mind, just like a short film..they comfort the broken hopes and spirit to stand up and fight. I learnt a lot and blissful to be what I am today. It’s a token in life when you see the good sides of what had happened to your life. Instead of blaming the fate or cry over it, take the fate wholeheartedly and live with it is a therapy of living a meaningful life. I am aware that I had changed in some ways. I had endured many ugly, painful and being lowest state in my life. Being disrespectful, being shamed before the friends I know, being criticised so many times and having people talking behind my back never kills my spirit of living my life positively. It’s very hurtful indeed, by the more people critics and say ugly things about me, the more motivated I am. It’s a feeling where I want to improve myself to become better and to prove those people that they are wrong about me. It’s a challenge I put for me. I want to show that i am capable of what I’m doing and worth for everything I earn. I always inspired by Rain (a Korean artist) story of life. I get connected my story of life with his and how he overcome those obstacle to become the world star. Thus, he is my strength to keep on living and I must not weak. Anyway, thanks to my angels of supporting me all the way through, being a friends of mine with all my weaknesses and flaws, listen to me whenever I fully need it, aids my wound whenever it hurts painfully and most importantly, share my laugh and tears.  

The Brand new way of life~~

One step for betterment

It’s been two month away since I won the campus selection in my faculty. Never ever in my life I had a thought that I will be a student’s representative for my faculty. For those who had known me, they truly understand of what I meant for not to run the election in the faculty. I fully aware of my calibre and skills, many of them surpass me..much more entitled to be a student representative than I. This is the work done by the previous MPP in my faculty. They picked me although I had strictly mentioned no to and yeah, those who are actively involved with the HEP programs will be easily pick up as the candidates. I had my own reasons of joining those programs. It’s fun, I got travelled a lot to magnificent places, I enjoy for what I’m doing in those programs, meeting new people from all different faculties and most importantly, to not be regretted of not learning in depth about UiTM itself. Personally, I believe that a true UiTM student should know what is really inside UiTM and being patriotic as the university student. It simply knows the current issues circling around UiTM, the administration, why is UiTM is being ruled this way etc. In other words, don’t be ignorant-study, eats, sleep. Appreciate the chance we have while we are here. Back to the previous point, this is not my dream (of being a MPP) though but everything that had happened is a destiny God had at me. No matter how far I run from the reality, it just didn’t change the fact of me being one. 
I heard a lot what people said behind my back. It’s like “what daa”, “the others are much better than her”, “why must she pfft”.  Yeah, those words came from them and mostly the collegiate. I didn’t give a thought over it. My answer them is just, “if that so, why isn’t you/he/she just ran as candidates for the selection? Instead of blaming those had won which you complaint as not qualified, not in your favour, ‘alien’ etc...why don’t you give a try or persuade those potential talents to run the election.  I see people talk a lot of their dissatisfaction rather than find resolution to their worry or problem. The best part is when people play two faces. You now it best right. The funny thing is they act if the person didn’t know of their regular habits of talking behind her back and pretend to be so pure and innocent like real friends. Well, it actually hurts more because those kind of people, I just don’t know which to believe about them when they be nice. Is it for real or fake. My concern now is to quickly finish of what I had started and give the best service to the faculty. It’s a responsible and burden only I know. Do the right thing, ignore the others. The title I’m having now, there is not slightest proud in it. Should I be one? Nope. It just for a year, egoistic kills a leader. I hate those who act like one and hate to be as one. Come on, there are bunches of people living with higher post are very down to earth. Be moderate in everything. Life is just that short as in the end we’re buried under the same ground.

I'm very comfortable now living this new way of doesn't imply everything has been great and days are gloomy some days..rains and's a mixture of everything that make my current state is very pleasing...

  That’s for now, so long after a hiatus.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

I found these words makes people want to fall in love & to be loved again

One step for betterment

First of all, I would declare that these ain't my word art and this poetry/quotes/song is taken from a Hindi movie. I would comment and discuss about the movie later in the next post so if you ain't have any idea from which it is taken, you'll know it soon.

This love is a dream for every girl in this planet and with sincerity and true love may we have it. Don't want to fret further, I present you, the ecstasy.....  

"the fragrance on your breath is me, how ever will you stop..not breathing?" 

"I felt god himself had blessed me..when all he did was to address me"

"I don’t live a life of the selfless, nor do I grab another’s wine…………if he has loves let he comes and declares it…to ask him... to follow him, I decline"

"I gave up complaining my master about you, for he is the most smitten by you, by far."

"Your voice is like a thunder in a storm, your smell is just like the earth after the first rain and you yourself is like a prince in a beggar clothing"

"I can’t explain the way of this market to you, he who is sold can’t ever be a buyer anew"

"The fire is in the sun but it’s the Earth that does the burning, the eyes fall in love, but it’s in the heart that does the suffering"

"Look at me up close, imbibe me in every way, just in case your fate has another card to play"

"If by mistake I have made a mistake, then please consider it a mistake and forget it. But only forget the mistake even by the mistake don’t ever forget me"

"You should love a prince, not a devil like me- it’s too late. Now this devil is my prince"

"If not for the rest of our life, we can spend the next 12 hours together, can’t we? Perhaps that’s all we have"

"Don’t come close to me, the storm will destroy you – I’m not destroyed in your storm, I am rejuvenated"

"May my life’s breath find refuge in your heart, destroyed in your love may my life depart"

"Never again will the winds be this shameless, never again will our steps falter so blameless"

"But this life without you is no life anyway"

"What if I let my heart life in your eyes? What if I close my eyes and punish your heart?"

"Our hearts are tremble when they meet, like they were never apart for even a beat"

"When I have your hands in mine,  I have with me the heavens divine"

"I have given you a lot of pain, still I am asking you to fill my wounds but I stand before you with the hope that you will forgive me"

"My breath was incomplete, heartbeat was incomplete, incomplete was I..Now the moon is full, complete in the sky and now with you complete am I"

p/s: Now you're scared

Allah knows best

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Perfect Flaws..A reason to double the love shot

One step for betterment

This isn't an intended lame joke...We naturally cracks it and the fun isn't belong to yours's ours..

Script 1

Maryam :     aaliyah mati sbb pesawat trhmpas..
Tikah     :     owh dia mati 4-5 thn lps..sbb pe?cancer ke?


Script 2

Maryam :     tikah, cite anaconda da x?
Tikah     :     ha?cite aruna?

Script 3

mak reen :   maryam tahu tak ni ulam apa?
maryam   :   ah, tak tahu.
mak reen :  ni tenggek burung
maryam   :  haa...eek uu??
 (dalam byk2 huruf dlm tuh eek ngan uu  jer dia dengar??)

Script 4

maryam : farah, ubat 2 wrna kuning
farah     : eh xla, farah x pening

Script 5

apek : nk plstik cover x?
farah : owh, xpe..
* sbnrnya apek 2 tnya bdk lain nk binding n nk buh cover plastik x.Mase tuh reen ngan maryam kat sebelah kot

Script 6

pekedai : nk plastik x?
reen      : sama2..dh byr dh td..

Script 7

maryam  : jom tipon Sahol
bazla      : bleh je klu nak 2nd round..
maryam : eh x nk la repeat.
bazla     : eh xla..bleh je nk mndi 2nd round.
maryam : ha?
bazla     : ha la, kn nak main sabun 

Script 8

tikah : bpe bungkus ni? 
farah : gna 2 kari, 1 ayam
tikah : owh, bape bungkus ni?
farah : 2 kari, 1 ayam ( secara perlahan 20 km/j)
p/s: bahana nk save saliva n masa..

Script 9

reen : tayammum 2 pkai debu tanah yg suci kn. nape taymmum kna pkai debu?
tikah : sbb debu sumber yg xkn abes , bak kata ust fauzi.
reen  : klu ujan, mcm mna nak cri debu?

* Krikit-krikit ( sume perah otak fikir  kot)
maryam :klu ujan xyah la tayammum

 (rase suma cam bongok sgt)

P/s: Seha ngan najah, jaga la korang, tk lame gi msk gak dlm list cript nih =p

Allah knows best

You & I together

One step for betterment

It just an updates about us.....We've been together since that and I always pray for the togetherness now and hereafter.....Some updates about us will then unleash the memory we shared...there's many ups and downs in the sailing boat, we laugh like witches and we cried like a baby. The hard times is tough to endure and it's painful but we have believe and trust, a trust that people change, You & I changed for the better and I am thankful for you in believing in me and never give up. I have had my swings and yours. We know it's a challenge to please us but we know we tried our best, thus we survived. This is a my pouring heart to heart, I might never able to said it verbally but I hope this writing will let you know how I really felt. I'm blessed for this togetherness.

Well, yeah, the updates.
We have gone for goood just after the Educational Psychology exam at the end of the day. It's all well planned since days before that. We are going to hit Alamanda Putrjaya for the celebration. (i still have one final paper..=p ). I have never beeen there and we planned for enjoy the eateries and bowling. Well, that's the plan. So, after the prayer, off we go. 

It took us about 1 hour to reach Alamanda Putrajaya. It's a breath taking nature beauty for a city like this. I want to have a house there.hhehe..we are totally in a great hunger, seriously like haven't eating since morning and having the first meal of the day is just like living again after the death. we ate sizzling yee mee and some juice. w fancy to try a bite for the famous waffle. (we did't make it, kenyang sangat makan tadi). 

Unfortunately for us, the bowling center is full and there's a tournament to be held after the 8.00pm. All the way to here is for bowl and Alamanda let us down. Thinking of the other alternatives....movies....erk, nope, definitely just wasting all the money and fuel just to glued our eyes on the big stupid screen. =p. So, we decided to go to arcade and have some fun there. Haaha.....the little kids we've become...I've never played it before and it's quite fun..just for some minutes but it's fun. Then, finally we decided to take a walk around the area of Putrajaya...It think Luck didn't charm us that night..All the street light were off leaving just the main lamps just to light the, my friends said the best part of Putrajaya is the night view with the sort of fancy street lamps and the fountain. And we didn't get both. How interesting is that, all the way to this place. 

The climax of our activity, out of the box and my thinking...was playing at the playground..and walk near the's dark and cold night.....but we found that it's the finest entertainment for us.....again, all the way from shah alam just for a playground??? hehe, dumbstruck. But, that's it. Maybe there's next time and by that time, no plan! coz it's  surely crashed. Yeah, I haven't yet mention that it's our third attempt to go bowling. Some days ago we planned to go Ole-Ole for bowling but it's full...then we straightly changed our location and went to Sunway. (it's quite pricey but still affordable for us)....then what, there was a tournament held and end up us to a casual hang out and food catch at Laksa Shack. See, patah la hati....

here some of our pics~!!

AT THE LAKE.....=]


 I can't bear to show the pics at the playground.....hehe....let it just be our memory... :)

Hey, thanks darlings...I am appreciated.

Allah knows best