Obsessed

Succumb-
The one word that I think is ME right now... Succumb to books, and the fairyland called BookExcess. I give the world to havethe bookstore....erm..that's too much I think...never mind, as I said just now, those books look so adorable by looking at them (why just recently I start noticing that?). Previously, I have just spend big time and so big money at the Malaysia Bookfair in KL... not regretting any of the heavenly shopping spree.... (cause me to cut down my spending on food). I have finished reading 50% of the books stuffed on my bed....for weeks...huhuhu.. the feeling of having pleasure reading was that minimal before but now this eagerness of having books reading in any free hour has blown up..

that's not the full stop yet...adding to this craziness, yesterday which was supposedly to be a good-girl-at-home weekend turn out to be a big day out for me..thanks to LinDonat for asking me to tag her along to BookExcess..she asked me once before but rejected due to slow cash flow in my account....*sobsob.... well, she hit the right timing I guess, mom just bank in monthly allowance (although only a quarter compared to last month) and here we go...shopping!!
She brought along her little siblings (literally..hahaha) and drove the usual 'submarine'.. The amount I've allocate for my day out is just 30MYR...hopefully it's enough.

My plan didn't work out....all the cashes sweep away with the new books in my hand...Bad money management...still...I was extravagantly happy spending hours and hours in that place. I'm madly in love with BookExcess...................just wondering...who's the owner ek??? hihihi

not to forgot...I really want to see my UM dearies before the final ......misssing u soo much

hold my hand

I'm heading towards the end of semester and this is not a yeay! week for me and for them too. there's only 2 weeks left before the study leave and to the finals. Lecturers keep tiring us with what should I call rains of ASSignments; case study (s), journals, survey, test and etc.. In one way it sparkles the enjoyment of having a hectic and busy time (that's make me feeeeeeeeel important...ahhaaha..vain..) but in the other way around I really have time on my own to be alone.. People might mistakenly think I'm isolating myself from others but it's not like that....I'm just working on my own... this is a way faster without any distraction from crazy-minded friends ( I love it but I can't stand la..I'm laughing toO much and not concentrating okei..huhuhu). Thankfully, I have settle almost 90% of the assignments and it such a great relief..WORK HARD PLAY HARD.... Weee~~~

I'm attending Majlis Anugerah Dekan tonight. Although I'll be there as a DL recipient but it just mean less for me compared to others who are in real excitement to become one night prince/princess under the spotlight, stealing everyone attention. It's their night, let them be... Well, don't get confused, it is not because I don't want to, but I have to...this event is a project collaborated under PMFP and SMF and I am the committee members (under PMFP) that cater a part of the whole system, one failed will caused the disruption of whole system....hmmmm...that's we call a teamwork. As the head for Special Task Bureau my work is easy; selecting the best DL recipient based on consultation from head of program lecturers. Love talking to them, Dr. Pramjit and Dr. Beh are nice people, it's not hard to get close to them, and fatherly too. On the event later, I have to ensure the smooth running of the program and prepare for the worst case scenario if it ever happen....to keep an eye for everything.....it's working hour but maybe I gonna have some fun too...hmmm, the only worry I hope the last to come is raining. I have checked the weather forecast and it might be raining this evening till night. Owh my, because we held the event in open-air (dataran tungku Fauziah at the main campus), bad weather is a foe to us. Please pray everything gonna be alright.


Jump into another updates, I have a private talk with one good friend last night, while waiting for the meeting...she really have strong heart and I admire how the hardship has changed her perspective towards life and relationship.......she become even maturer than others, not by her looks but the mind. Life is not about having all fun hanging out with friends, going crazy-minded and all that... life need us to be ready facing the real thing we didn't want to be in or to have. It just as serious as that in reality and that's not easy. As what I advised her, takes all your weakness and flaws as not a shame, you want to get rid of them but not all, some are permanently be there because we are not perfect and never be perfect. When the person accepting you while you are in the best and in the most fragile being, he is the chosen one...the right man for you. He knows, being a fragile tell that he is needed to keep you living and this will get you closer to each other. you're bound to be together no matter how far you run from each other..getting rid of each other as deep inside your heart, both are still loving and this is clear for me to see that. Believe in destiny because it never lies, it tells where will your relationship going to head and how does it ends, if The Almighty said He is the one for you, then you'll have the ring. Whatever it is, I admit that she so lucky to have a man that really spare his life for her in every way, as I have never see a guy that have a heart like his.....Hmmm, I will pray for you to be together loving each other.....
we are not that close but we have the heart to pour and share anything together, and that's soothing for us...thanks for sharing your life dearie...I am bless to be one of your colour in life..

Angel

Yes, I am being ignored....by ***.
I see you here...so close yet really faraway
Trying to speak...asking you but only my lips pursing the words with mute sound..
As a friend..the concern towards your life is always burning...from afar...
you pour yours to them..and I left unknown
even painful when you let me know your one of many angels...
don't say goodbye...coz it just bloody painful..

wish you for a happy life..and yeah, your life is getting better and the better is what you have become..

I know you happy and may happiness light your life..






Why must I being sad..tormented in this way...a million dollar answer if I could know.. I don't know how to treat you like always..so better for me to step away....because you have the other angels ( i think)...above all, you'd fill my life with many memories..and I shall keep the remaining memories forever for I once used to be XXXXXX.

Te Amo

I really feel bloated with the intertwine friendship dilemma i'm gaming in right now. What a good hunter I have become eh...from one to another. Thus, how can this heart will be ever in peace? Now the besties had now bother asking this one thing....and it's hurt me to admit that me and this one friend now have nearly become history. distance keep us apart....and this person also keep a distance from me and somehow make me feel that *** don't want to be near me though. Ouch...what an excruciating truth to learn..

hear me...I am really sad..disappointed and numb....to see how situation had change us...maybe it's my fault..maybe it just *** has choose *** own path...away from me. We used to glued together like a good friends and noticing we are totally different now...I just hope that *** knows I am always taking big concern on *** and *** always in my heart despite all the contradiction in our both life... I want *** back as the one I cherish before..but am afraid of making the first move...how sadden isn't it right......having new friends might have fossilized the grip of our friendship....

I'm switching the code in friendship and if you had notice me...I am with the other ###... peoples are speculating of our public closeness...buzzing here and there....but hey, I am close to ###since 1st semester degree okay...but not as public as you have seen....why...maybe because of all things that had happen...I and ### discussed many on this thus tighten the bond as friends.. still....every time I am with ### ..it makes me thinking to the previous that I had before....and realizing...I have now loosening the tie and might lost ### forever....if you reading this ###, I hope you would know that I have long want to talk to you but afraid of confronting this dilemma.. Only by writing this post..I am able to speak my heart and my mind without physically facing your face...hmmm...I don't know if this will solve or tangling like forever....Lord...help me going through this...

Am I saying anything about betrayal? Owh, that's just another drama I don't to discuss yet...might be later for sure...not in the mood right now..