Medsi ...

The night before Medsi... the briefing at mawar college..find me...huuhhu..you'll never get it




those blank faces...and poses...at mawar..




Mr.syah....our PAPA...huhuhu


About Medsi test..we'll have the test at different centre (school), some at sec.2 (me luckily..like merangkak pun sampai)..sec.18 sec.11, sec 24, sec 18 and sec 16 (so far as i know) ... what is needed before the test? Hmm...pencil, eraser, slip, ID card and student card...and yeah, your brain too.....


and I had a chat with someone I closed to last night..while waiting for Mr.Syah..she told me now that the situation is getting better for it right now..and i can proceed the next step forward..if i want to...and she says she'll help me to sort things out..why she's saying that..is she hoping me to be w.....Hmmm.. confussed.please don't give me hope

sometimes....pictures speaks louder than words...a picture signifies more than a thing..

dream girl

In the middle of the night...suddenly i woke..again..it's like my habitual to get off from bed around 2 @3 am for god sake knows why.. I creep silently from the-not-so-comfy bed..to the toilet....washed my face...doing some things..stayed up again...and dozed off.
That's not the story yet..

I had had a dream last night..one freaky scary horror dream..and the best thing is it's look like real..like it really happened to me..or going to happen..I have no clue. But it occurred to me and there's many people too. On the particular day..i just stroll along the road, and the weather is fine too. just a few second after that..many of us see the changes in the cloud..it's look like to rain but the sky is clear as everything is fine...but it's not..believe me. then i saw a golden circular shining ball fall out of sky..it's hot and i think it's kind of lightening..seriously. there's many of them and they are aiming the people..us. We were running and i'm running zig zag to avoid the lightning to strike on me..yeah,..it's like the ka-me-ha-me-ha ball in dragon ball you know..many were dead after the first strike.. i was soo scared..don't wanna die yet..still have lot more to do...and....i haven't married yet..(jesting).

Then i saw my father..he also run for his life but god..he can't escape from the golden lightning..there's hundreds of them..it hit straight to him...i saw his face..the face struggle to continue his last breath...the icy face..full of pain..i was crying..nearly to howl...calling his name.."DAD..DAD...why should you suffer like this..it should be me!!!'..i don't want to lose you again...we've separated long before..and just met..why you to go so sudden..I cried hardly..and i think i really cry..

i kept running and then i saw the one small circular golden lightening came towards me..i prayed hard..to god..and i say this..which is now i still remember every words.."god,if your mercy is still there for me..save me..love me...forgive for all sin that i've done..i swear to you to perform all the commands and pray on time..i won't be late for the pray again..i know i've betray the promise to you to become a faithful servant as the best as i can...i'm sorry..but please..save me from this.."
I closed my eyes tightly...maybe the time has come..i'm going to die...in a hard way..
-pause-/...i'm waiting ...nothing happened.. i looked around me..the thing has gone..and.. HE listen to me..I'm survived...
#puff#

i woke up from sleep...the tragedy..my heart pounding very fast..as i've just survived...i'm sweating ..my shirt wet a bit..haih...it is a sign for me as i've done something wrong to HIM??? i wonder?? i am doing sin..and HE warns me..through the dream...well..from my analysis..it's positive..soo scared to death..yeah..nearly die actually...

and my dad...he supposed to be in heaven right now..peacefully..not in my tragedy...whatever it is...i'm missing you dad..so much...please don't make me cry again..i've cried a lot..those salty tears...

Amrican Idiot make it

Last...night..when we were together....I felt so right...to slumber in the bed ya.
READERS...I WON...we won the drama final assignment.huhuuhu
the best parody is 'American Idiot'. shurahhh!!shurahh!! i just don't believe my eyes...when the lecturer announce the winner of this drama... wour team burst into cheers and cheers and we hugged each others..so proud..thirled and relief..felt so blessed after the endless hardwork and countless day of training..it's paid of handsomely.. the beautiful thing about this winning is ...our team got the highest marks for our assignment (we'', the acting is our final task for graded assignment of language & drama)...

I thought we'll win nothing ..others are so great, especially Doraemon epic, Prince Caspian and Cinderella..those acting were fantastic, fabulous and cool..but then again...our performance was great too perhaps....we jinxed the audience with enchanted 'the old lady', 'miss J'. , 'chris brown' and Mr Phantom of the opera. and not to be forgotten...Amir@Amirah.hehehe..

I can see some blank faces here...parody drama is the drama copied from the original story but it's being mocked in a funny way..make it as a comedy drama

our story is about the final competition of american idol...which the theme is food
the host ryan sea crest has undergo a cosmetic surgery and changed into a woman..he faked his death sue to media pressure (pressure la sgt)...the new host for American Idol is Ryanna Seadress..there are misunderstanding before the on air..coz the American Next Top Model montaj is mistakenly appeared on screen instead of American Idol. tyra bank disguised as Paula Bendul...Miss J turn into Randy Laksa....and Twiggy transformed into Simon Coward

the contestants; Fantasy Berok Noh (the winner of previous american idol but with zero popularity) and she 's singing can't live without food by Mariah Carey, Chriss Drowsy...singing 'im the food eater (original song is i'm the heart breaker) and Keriss Berown (rihanna BF)...singing 'need food' (original song is need you by chris brown) the songs lyrics are all nothing but food...you can tell right.. the final was disturbed by Mr. Phantom of the opera.. we're all copying the scene when christine dae' sang with the phantom in the theater..that was the best part in our drama...it's so dramatic and spooky...then..mr. phantom was chased away from the studio by stage manager as he entered the wrong studio.hahaha...poor him...the old lady is the prominent character...she enliven the studio with cheers and support...very funny..so at the end...the winner is not among the 3 of them..but the old lady...that's it..superb right...i love the story line

here is the winning drama last night:

the best parody- American Idiot (Group A)
the best acting - Desperate Betty (Group B)
- Cinderella (Group B)

the best goup - Doraemon Epic


the end of drama..meaning the end of study term for us....
-to be continued-

FINAL FANTASY>>>

here...the most awaiting..nerve catching moment...few hours before my final drama project. My group will be performing our drama play in the Intec hall this evening...and looks like lady-luck is still on vacation...I need my fairy god father then. heheh..the sky is fiercing and thick dark lines appeared on it..hope it is not going to rain cat and dog..

My feeling???of course excited, thrilled and nervous...man, I'm kind of fainted thinking how im going to perform this..my play is about the singing competition...AMERICAN IDIOT
and i'm the amirah or amir..the make up artist..how irony am i in this character

today..is kind of a crazy day too....es early as 8am in the morning..i had the literature test which is the marvelous questions to chew...and then proceed to the test for basic education for another 2 hours..what a hectic day..
after sitting both tests.that is the mark of my final day with the lecturers here...im walking another steps to the final semester of asasi tesl...going through the final days with asasians which make me too emotional when thinking about it...i love them all...love mt closest friend and haih...love is just like this..im at the end of my journey at uitm..

Ps: pray hard for me okay...

drama-dramatic huh

i've decided..and i know for sure it 's gonna be alright. whatever it is..hard to say it out loud here..but then again, let's have a peep talk with me. I have always believe and look positive on others regardless what kind of person is.. but giving too much hope make you end up with disappointment and thus, don't give false hope on other as we can't expect them to be as what we want them to be as they are just like that. After the dramatic day yesterday, HE shows me the light and the sign that what i've done before..the effort is not working and nothing change. Thanks to HIM, HE leads me to the path that i think i've gone far away form it couple days ago.. and now, i am not the swaying girl and it such a relief to be normal again...

and did I say i've gone through a dramatic day yesterday? oh yes...i did.
as early in the morning, around 9-ish i off from mawar with cab to sec.2 and soon after i'd arrived, then i realize my sandals tore off and i'm soo in the rush to settle my assignment (need to print out all essay ). have to return back to mawar to change shoe still with cab and then back again to sec.2 straight to the cyber cafe...easily rm10 notes flying away within 5 minutes...

the class start at 10.30 and yes, ive got test today, final test for writing but still at the cafe on 10.15am..again i'm so the cab girl today as i'm on the cab to fac., feeding the driver with rm6 notes. im on time, luckily..

what do you think, with my devil-may-care attitude, you might hope it's a lovely day....but STOP, fate just want to play with me again..won't send me off just like that.huhuh
I'm presenting 'Flowers for Algernon' in literature class and many was interested with our presentation.Yippe..but then again, we still have another 5 group to nag in the front. with the unconscious mind, i attempted doing something unusual....let's call it involuntary action(learn it in Biology), i dozed off....such embarrassing when the presenters woke you up.HEy, Atif was snoring at the back peacefully, why don't you just bother him!! Unfair.....why me.huhuhu

it continues....lady-luck off to vacation i think,

diddy announced we shall have official drama practice at intec hall...8-10pm..
Darn..alya had reminded me to bring costume...and..I forgot

in the drama, they know me as Amir the boyish aka Amira.the boyish girl will be on stage without his costume..and ont hat day, I'm wearing a tudung labuh complete with modern baju kurung!!huh,, scary to play that role on stage with such attire..heheh a muslimah boyish..
neh..im blank and syah is my super saver, he lent me his jacket to wear and ..yes, it's much better. (don't kill me farah, it just a jacket, we talk later in room ok). the drama practice was disastrous, not because our performance. we are so all -out as the ethos members were laughing crazily...hmm good sign. but it was the sound system and montage...we can't play the montage and such as disturbing..we can perform better if that thing can work..it somehow let us down you know..a bit..

As you can see, everything was soo wrong and not in the right place

..before i forgot, we ended our drama practice with another drama melodramatic scene...athirah had felt down the staircase and it hut=rt her badly, fell off while carrying her Vaio...it's a loud bump sound and ..pity to her, what can we do is comforting her, i hugged her tightly to say she's okay, everything fine...pity again

during drama practice...Atif plainly informed me...he left my laptop in our grammar class..
in Dedaru hall...thannks....what to do...patient..patient..it's not a bad day ...lady-luck just stay away from me...got to get her back tomorrow