people are funny

you are free to live a life as your accordance .......the decision of what right and wrong lay on your shoulder as Allah say he grants the ummah with whatever they put n life.......you're in the candy jar if you do things right in the line of syarie........and vice versa.but the thing is watch out your statement..people will notice as if your saying is the same as what you are doing.don't just get mad on others......condemn the way they live their life (although it's totally wrong..inapproriate..or whatsoever) but you're actually do the same.so what put you the right on that unofficial statement?? see......... it's like spit on your face...yang haram memang haram..tiada keraguan ke atasnya.....daripada diri terus menyirna hidup orang keliling...........adalah lebih baik kita jangan lupa bermuhasabah dengan diri.......

I'm not pointing this personally but to everyone.......and yes.....a reminder note to myself of not doing this. People like me will always unable to forget what did people say to her......because of the photographic memory in mind that captures every words and lines that come from your mouth... sorry to disappoint.but it's true....people are funny beings right....sometimes they not even know what they are saying unless people get them corrected or they come to a realization...............and every time it flashes through my mind........I'll know..........whatever you say or write is just next to nothing..doesn't even matter......because in this part, seeing is believing...............

another day......life goes on

"if finding is hard.......to sustain is way much harder....in order to give worry to no one.....lock this heart hard as chill, cold stone....although you're crying through your skin".......this is my quote in my fb...

what makes me happy?
what makes me gloomy?
what makes me worry?
what makes me crazy?
what cause me silly?
what arouse my jealousy?
what is matter for me?

all these Q's only could be answered with a saying...which is the only I could find...in my dictionary....it's YOU..........FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!! (second after my family....should I mention that? )
I have no one......i don't want another ....I never want to crave new love from any stranger in the street....I would never mind to stay single till my graduation.........this girl is too friends-centered.... HERE..................because I'm here........I am that type...........home is where I belong... family is my ground love...but here....friends are whom I meant to be with........friends are those I give my love to.....soO ..my ups and downs are ain't other guys besides you.....can't you see?? standing by here at your window....all this time would you ever want to know?? then........ you just know this is another me....

at this age...people can't resist to ask this silly question to you- "have you gotten anyone yet?".. some friends of mine too asked me that.......i rather say ...I'm not wanting anyone now.....my life is merrily happy with friends to live with....i don't know if you think this is normal or not but till this moment there's no feeling develop inside altough i used once to have a crush (oOpss!!) but that's just way too long a go....it's dead..RIP...I feel nothing..not attracted to anyone...although when you guys bubbling bout nice..handsome ..good looking guys.....I'm just so heartless... in my eyes...they are just like a plain VC wood......but that's good..and I like the way I feel towards them...because now I'm too young to think over this matter..and yes, life as single is enjoyable..carte blanche!!...

exposing my flaws to people...im just a being

what should I say about life during this week...everything is FULL of things to do...meeting assignments date, revisions, a little business to cater, and not to be forgotten, myself to take care off...i really have to keep an eye on myself......to remember things i occasionally tend to forgot..reminding myself of what should I do, how should I be...MANNERS........and where to go..it's all sound soo weird-keeping an eye on yourself...but that is what I'm working on.......

yesterday was a tiring day.....i felt exhaustedly worn - out...it affected me physically but the most dominant will be psychologically....I screwed things up....when it seemed to go well in the first place... feel bad of myself because I'm the one who keep it everything in my palms... and what did I do was I missed a slide of my group member topic which how on earth it's happening...but clearly it's my fault.. and i tell you, once you get caught red handed, people will never ever give you a face... it was my first timer...and lost the trust from people, i believed...they'll set a bad mark on you..it's a blame people will set on me, but i deserve it because I know it is my flaw..it just that i can't bear this fate..... I never want to screw up my on presentation, the last thing to think off and for this I feel terribly sorry..sorry..sorry...it might look like a minor mistake to you..but to me..it's the HUGE....SHAMEFUL event to me as it makes me look like people couldn't count on me anymore...it's shameful because i can't handle thing which I presume I can...

there's a previous presentation done in class, when my friend acclaimed found missing, but it's not actually... my member give me the authority to delete any redundant data in the slides for the sake of making a shorter presentation... (after cutting on slides, we still have 45 slides to present, can't make it briefer) which unfortunately belong to my member's.... so, it is accounted as my fault too??? only we, the member group know the actual truth, but i am surely unsure what the other would say .......hmm.....i sit back and think a lot...console myself of what had happened.... where did I went wrong...i want to make it right....I pray GOD will have the light on me.........

the beautiful thing of that terrible mistake that I could look forward is never handle two things in a time....you might think that you wan't to ease the work by doing both...i fact, you should share it with your peeps...next time, I better focus on paperwork only...just the paperwork..let the other settle on another stuff...it's focus and teamwork that deliver success. then again, I'm sorry (i do say sorry to the person personally)........ i'm expecting your assumption towards me...I have no clue what's in your mind..whatever it is........I can't change how your mind speaks......

i take my work seriously....i do procrastinate in doing them but ensure I'll meet the dateline..... when it come to assignment project, it is important to me to makes everything look perfect in the eyes of the lecturer, so if we work as a group, to beat the highest score is what I aim for... i scrutinize everything, I'll check every lines we wrote...examining every list of references we had if they're all used in the paperwork..as if not I'll be delighted to erase those selected from the list.... (just to make sure everybody won't take it for granted, or lie) and know it's a bit crazy which not every people would willingly do that. noticed that, I can be freakly stern in pushing people to meet the schedule..which make some feel uncomfortable to be on my flow as I could notice....but fortunately I know what 'mellow' means... (the signal from inevitable incident that happened to them)...... but when you have a high expectation on work from others....you'll know that people would double their expectation on your works....it's a pressure and challenge that I call upon to...

gladly, I'm really thankful because ALLAH always arranged the best thing for me....He put me with the finest team members...where everyone give them all in their work (a compliment based on your work sent to me).... although you really stamp a deep patient with some in handling works (to give guidelines and help them work things out) always open to any improvement and betterment.... flaws and misunderstanding always a shadow....hunt us everywhere we go.....it's how we fix them up...

that 's it......I look things, and live my life positively........yet, realistic.....i got hurt when condemned by people...i feel sad when people criticizes my work........but it's temporarily (according how people embraced me...be mellow in your words because you're not my lecturer)... let it be... because it shows that people care....there's a room for you to be a better person.

-a time to reminiscence yourself-

*written on friday, 8.30pm*

this is just to say

appreciate.......
the minute..intact memory you had in younger times..

think..........
'bout the smallest thing you did and still do presently....

remember......
your first love, if you still have it. Be thankful to the present love you hold in hands...because tomorrow might not be the same taste of love you have now...be grateful with the person you pour love in the moment...because you might lose him on the next day...be aware of evil eyes in the small window...they're waiting your love to quake

reminisce........
your laughter that most audible.... that's the real happiness you might lost....because now you seem to forget what happiness means to you...


dear friends..........asasians/bloggers especially......listen...many of you now in the devastated feeling and hopeless hope in life....may my words will send a small, intense happiness to you...although it's just temporary....don't cry......don't sad....a friend is here...(n_n)
hey........you are loved......

my post in the native language

Reika nk cakap melayu la pulak……huhu. Hmmm, bile sembang ngan kawan2 perempuan nie..byk la benda kitorang nk kongsi….tapi reika suka…sebab selalunya bile sembang2 ngan diorang nie..mesti ada benda bermanfaat dan ilmu baru reika dapat…ilmu berguna la…alahai…bukan benda yang bukan2…bagi reika la…bagus jugak bile sembang cmni…macam wat usrah jer…tapi bukan secara formal la…bincang ilmu berguna…diskusi agama…membuatkan diri nie banyak fikir…banyak merenung persekitaran hidup sekarang nie…..camtu laa..hah, tau tak usrah tue apa?? Usrah tue…..maksud bahasa arab, keluarga….secara konteksnya, usrah itu perbincangan ilmiah, isu semasa, agama dll dalam satu kumpulan kecil..diketuai seorang ketua.


Nk buat usrah nie kat mana2 pon boleh…bukan kat surau jer….kt bilik pon boleh…benda nie, bukan susah pon, bila kita mula diskusi sesuatu yang berguna, berilmiah, kemusykilan atau pandangan dalam agama ke…secara automatic kira usrah la tue..tapi dalam hati, niatlah..perbincangan tue, niat lillahi taala…dh dapat pahala..malaikat pon datang dekat…memayungi ahli2 kt situ…..mudah kn??bukan suma kawan reika sahabat surau…selalu turun surau…(reika pon dh lama tak turun…isk3x…insaf lah..wahai atikah)….walaupun cmtue..yang bestnya, kitorang kat bilik solat jemaah ….selalunya sekali sehari… paling kurang pon, seminggu sekali…kira okay la tue kn…walaupun tk turun surau, solat masih berjemaah…lebih baik dari tak buat langsung…(reika tau mesti ada cakap2 belakang tak puas hati sebab tak turun surau, tapi reika cakap apa yang reika buat, kalau tak pergi, reika cakap tak pergi, nk turun surau bukan sebab kita ahli surau..niat kena elok, baru rasa tenang duduk kt surau..bukan paksa2, okay!)..haaa…bukan jer makan sekali..sembang sekali..solat pun kena sama2( walaupun tak selalu, sekurang2nya buat jgak)….kat bilik, hari2 ada orang baca Quran, walaupun bukan orang yang sama… itu kemahuan sendiri la…cara kita nk menggalakkan orang baca quran…hah, selalu la baca kat bilik..mana tahu, satu hari dia tetiba tergerak k baca…terasa dh lama hidup jauh dari Quran..btl tk?? Kuasa Allah…mana kita tahu..hmmm…..


Setiap kali kitorang bincang+sembang2 masalah ker..bab2 agama ker..rasa seronok yg teramat sangat..sebab kitorang minat bincang benda2 nie…kongsi la suma yang patut…jadi, rasa syukur la..sebab tau, Allah tue sayang sgt kt kitorang, Dia bukak pintu hati …sebab tue Dia tempatkan reika ngan kawan2 yang suka mendalami agamanya…bukan la nk kata sumanya alim sgt..reika pon tau diri reika cmne…..masih banyak yang kurang…kita sedar siapa kita, di mana tahap kita…tapi, kesedaran agama tue ada……hati tue masih terbuka untukterus mengenali Maha Pencipta, memperbaiki diri supaya menjadi lebihbaik..ey, bukan senang tau nk cari kawan yang suka bincang pasal islam..isu2 kawan2 seagama…orang sekarang lebih suka mengelak dari bincang isu2 nie…mengatakan ianya sensitive…masing2 sendiri tahu la...gitu la lebih kurang….hmmmm. kawan2 perempuan kt sini…kira okay la…sederhana..tahu la..halal haram…wajib..haram…jaga diri..jadi..macam nie sekali pon reika rasa bersyukur sangat….sebab kebanyakan mereka bukanlah jenis ‘ignorant ‘…..yang penting solat tak tinggal ek..huhu..tue jer…post tuk kali ini….(~_^)


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