Tonight..............

Tonight........the night curtain fall ....enclosing twilight where new moon arise. Staring at the stars on the ajar oak wood door, the thin diamond-shape lips whisper the same pray again....soft but audible,'please come back soon...' . Her eyes gleaming with sprinkling small lake, is her night will be same like the other night? Will she strolls the a night like yesterday? or days before yesterday? nobody knows.....

She would love to be caressed as she once had, gently tuck her in bed and hold her hands... comforting her with encouraging spells near the ears....shook off her fear when she dropped the wand...nobody ain't better that her love. She wants nobody...nobody...but her.....willingly to give everything in this world if the time she could acquire... yes, the time....she's being thinking of that....many times before..only if...

Time kills us....she knows her loves never tear off and never ripped away..she knows by looking at her narrow brownish eyes..the eyes never tell lies. the time......is what we had lost... her clear small lakes finally burst, silently..... like filling water in a bucket full with holes and drain away.... that's what she feels.

She's pathetically want to be accompanied....she knows her love has no choice but to lead that way...she's wondering when will her love would finally slower the pace...and rest....snatch back the already gone life, away together...far...to faraway land. Both haven't covered each other story in all pages....haven't yet.. soon they will...she's promised herself. She's a day stronger because her love speed the life, no one else..

Tonight, on the velvet cushion...waiting furiously....feeling hot blooded blood running in the vein with great pace,the old clock on the wall yells, Cinderella should leave within an hour... she knows, her love wouldn't make it tonight .....hmmm.......she drops on her chin....maybe tomorrow.......... perhaps.

"You know I want you, I know you sorry for us, HE knows we'll patiently wait........ We both knows how intense the love we have on each other....one day, everything will be fine.....Mother"

cirtumseptra..........this girl is cursing something.

UiTM is in the state of emergency, for a solid one week.........it's all what you need to know presently. but i just knew it in the most disturbed and unwelcome time.....while my eyes were glued on the screen, watching harry potter......on the climax lane..where dumbledore was about to be killed and begging for mercy from severus..see!! you're distracting me in the most awaited moment..aish.. okay, apologize accepted with a Big Apple treat.huhuhu...

Again, Uitm is under a threat.......A BIG threat..it's not from terrorist...neither voldermort.. none from Lady Gaga..hmm, H1N1...I think H1N1 is soo lonely and wanna make friends with us...and it's not infecting these people around the globe, but spreading its love potion to everyone on this planet, so then it'll build a warm connection- another reason of fever. Isn't it? hehe....sounds so cool.. btw, with the early called for semester break, surely I'm free from the lecture class, homework (do we had had one???) and expenditure...yup, glad though........for god sake, I'm broke y' know..Have nothing left to dig in this pocket..well, thought that i'm totally bless???? Please...I'm not, really...for sure.......it's all because of YOU!!!! ..................ASSIGNMENTS!!! My goodness, i got 4 of them lining up behind me grunting for a lullaby.. haish, here's the list below-

1. Foundation of Education - research on medieval time (culture and education) + latest issue in Malaysian education (mini research)

2. Counseling - research on Bipolar Disorder

3. Islamic Study - Assignment and presentation on civilization through the eyes of westerners and muslim

4. Literature - presentation on 'the last spin'

dearest classmates, since u all love to reach me on phone asking for our homey (an invented word from 'homework') .......I already attached u the answer here.............hmm.....how's that??? I'm so gonna be dead stabbed right now.. a research is mostly undone without sources from library and that's what I have to leave behind now as I'm going back hometown..aish...disaster.

okay, move on to the next tale....

i thought that i am losing the crown in the heart...this feeling is about to melt away...but the trust and the remembrance in the utmost neediness time, assure me that the crown is always there...it just foggy sometimes makes the eyes blurry to actually see where the place is.....so, glad to know that i'm still that important...thanks, appreciated. of course sometimes I doubted it because of all the circumstance in this present and it did make me feel isolated..push away from the life... and yes, again...i'm over the Mars........

A love...as a choice...or not

In life, God bless us in so many unique ways, thus making this momentarily life a wonderful journey to remember. But, there’s a thing.. a gift that we tend to forget or somehow simply assume we never get a chance to have this- an ability to choose. To some people, the way they carry their life is by following what has been determined by others and believe it’s a fate. The opportunity to decide is always in the hand and that determination we made will eventually doodle the canvas of our own. One choice made remarks the next stage of our saga.

Love ……is the remedial of dark lonely night

Love…… sometimes is inseparable though unspoken, it’s deeply felt

Love…..makes one know when to hold on more tightly and when to let go the string

Love……split, but memories remain

Love is to conquer…but sometimes, to let go is also called as love, the most unselfish love

That’s what I know bout the affection of an affectionate love in us (human)..huhu...just let u know some.. there's more

To worship is the utmost reason of living…..but to love also makes a reason to live.
It’s up to a person to opt either to have a partner or yet to have one. Choosing to share life with someone which is somebody to us…is not one night decision. Determination, consideration and unmatched commitment are what it does take. It is to get prepared to whatever outcomes and stakes in future. To some, they only find gut to indulge a bar of chocolate and afraid enough to have a sip a poisonous potion. If one is incapable to endure difficulties, distance and tight emotion that’s never want to stay calm, why digging your own graveyard….venture into a relationship? So, if staying with partner because faith in sacred love and believe that nothing wouldn’t stop you…..it’s always your choice to make. The heart should know which of which is the best to pick.

So, stop whining on each other and start thinking seriously. How good is oneself on each other, is the fire turns dim compared to the early time before? We do hear people say to their loved one’s…’I know you’….in fact he’s not but just a piece of it. Let the confusion melt away, and aim to match unleveled understanding on each other because on the end, love alone not merely play the biggest part in this game…you should be clear on this.

To me too-
*why choosing a stranger to pour love when hatred towards oneself does never end………
*let the magical, powerful force of love takes place at the time it should be……it comes when it is upon. Discover love universally, a love suit not only for venus and mars but it enters in family and friends…. Not to mention love towards God and His prophet which are must be ranked in the highest position in us.

blogging indulgance

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i'm currently indulging blogs from around the globe....yeah, to seek some advancing teaching bout my religion and academia writing on the net. there's some of blogs i've listed below that is irresistible for me not to follow......

1. drhymki.blogspot.com
2. aishahjuhaira.blogspot.com
3. zurhainismail.blogspot.com
4. almomentum.blogspot.com
5. dzulkhairi.blogspot.com
6. allangkati.blogspot.com
7. nisahmizah.blogspot.com

some writings are so refreshing and it makes me think critically on how to view a particular issue people hardly want to discuss or a case we feel bother to talk about. Somehow, it circulates every single aspects which are beautifully inserted by islamic lesson/view.

a saying from senior makes me think a while....

walaupun seorang insan itu hilang dalam kesesatan, jauh dari tuhan dan tenggelam dalam kemaksiatan.sesungguhnya dia masih beruntung dan selamat untuk menginsafi diri kerana Allah sentiasa terbuka menerimanya kembali..dengan satu cara iaitu taubat nasuha (dosa-dosa akan terhapus)...melainkan satu sahaja dia tidak akan diterima Allah....syirik kepada agama-NYA.

isn't that ALLAH is merciful ????

from UM to Uitm

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here the story goes.....

about half a way to walk in the library....'soko' sang 'take my heart' in my sony ericsson, a message is in!! haha. watip texted me..saying she's and alya is on the journey through hustle and bustle in traffic to shah alam. WHOA!!! sounds so great and i'm over the venus!!! geez, they should tell me earlier. i just bought plusliner ticket, stated i should depart from shah alam by 3 pm...(i mistakenly told her, 2 pm...huhu, wrong information laa)...texting her on the couch at 1st level, with a friend of mine beside..told watip i might not gonna make it this afternoon because of the ticket.damned, hate myself...sai told me he's going to dine with them..not to be mentioned fikah too..haish. I asked muhyi if it is possible to postpone my bus schedule and get new ticket... his dazzling idea fire up my hope.

I managed to get new schedule for bus trip at 5.00 pm without extra charge on it..yea!!..alhamdulillah... no trick at all, be honest on words and tell the receptionist your problem, they'll be delighted to fix it if you deliver a good maneuver...I just did. hehe...honesty is always the best policy. Well, after friday prayer, which i purposely didn't perform it..why should I??? a girl is an exception laa...so, after completing my jama' n qasar prayer at surau....i rushingly put on make up and everything (not really la)...fabulous, must look great to meet my girls..hahaa. So, i'm waiting there with the other bunch of my course mates...all wearing pants, cracked jokes around the corner and trash talking...seeking the magical bus T529 to arrive.

with me and my other friends tagged along, we made our way to 'ani sup utara' at section 2...watip and alya were strucked at mawar due to flood of human on the road...after half an hour later, they finally emerged from deep humanic ocean and i could see

alya is............................... STRAIGHT!!!

I couldn't believe my eyes....she's changed at last, felt like tears drop on my lap...isk..isk..isk...yup, her hair is straight. that's it, isn't she's beautiful?? (tapi alya u lagi comey ngan tudung tuh....i still kep that photo, huhu)

and watip...the beauty, nothing much to say..she's as alluring and gorgeous as before. still, beautiful...haha..welcome UM's haha...your status had changed. i'm very happy to see them again, they told us lots about Um and the people there. what an interesting information and stories to share. Hmmm, I mostly listen to what they said, and laugh...so, that's it....it's worth rearrange my bus trip to have an evening with those I miss a lot..and here's if u r reading my blog, an advice to ponder dear, take a good care of yourself and don't get carried away with the new, different air you have now, it might be poison if inhaled everything inside.. huhu... love u, so....much

teslian transformers

At last, the bird is finding it’s nest back….i am the little -not-that-petite bird and the bird now is growing up. May the claws grow sharper, may the bird is the bold survivor. no more petite-looking bird that always fall learning the first step to fly. With the strong beaks, the bird strokes smoothly in the air..waving into the sky. It’s a life transition from beginner to an intermediate actually…turning into a new leaf. As greening as ever , I would eagerly want to write another chapter in the text book and hopefully it will become the best chapter written by me. So of course, I aim for the star but although I might not reach it, I might be landed on the moon. Who knows…….right, enough of me then.

Here is another thing I would like to share, I’ve done course registration and choose to settle in Group A. it’s the schedule that fascinate me as we have a short time interval between classes as it’s not my favor to attend classes late before the dawn. Most of buddies in asasi still stick in the Group A which is fabulous. Somehow, few of my closest friends registered in Group B and definitely left me a little bit dismay. Haha..whatever, we have to decide the best for sake of study, and to make oneself feel comfortable in class is big important matter too to ensure survival for entire semester… hence, it’s not a big deal not to stay in the same class with whom I want to as there’s many more friends to stick with. Although the different schedule make the daily meeting in faculty becomes rather difficult, it’s enough for me if we passed by one another with warm greeting and big smile on face and if possible a little chat will be just nice. To me, physically separated…forever in heart. That’s the oath…hehe, really..I give my all to friends those I adore and care the most. Meeting new friends is another thing too. Luckily, our team is having a bunch of teslians mostly from Malacca and they are very nice to us. We are easily get into each other very well after the second class and it’s a great kick start in this semester. I heard that outsiders in the Group B are annoyingly snobbish and cold. Owh my, such an unwelcoming new buddies in class, hey guys, you should teach them some hard lesson and let them feel like a slap on their face so then they will know how to treat home guest. Basically, it’s only a beginning…can’t wait for more and I will keep my eyes on that because above all, I am a teslian transformer.

Aha..before the closing of this post, there’s one last thing I would like to unravel from my pocket. The air, the atmosphere and the ray too are not exactly the same as the one we had in asasi, many has changed mentally, physically and emotionally … I rather say. Time passed by almost unnoticed with those you’d love the most and now we’ve parted it’s hard waving goodbye and not in a second I stop thinking of you guys out there wondering how’s your life would be. All in all, live a great life and lead a great future. For teslian transformers, this is the beginning of the journey we are in now…many to endures after this.