exam? disturbia + disturbed

Haven't post anything since some days ago.........
and just realize the exam is just around the corner......can smell it, it's not a fragrance that I want to....

Ehm..what do exam meant to me? and what do me meant to Exam...
Stressed out....little bit maybe,

Insomnia...less sleep , bid goodbye to the cosy bed and you'll sleep at any port possible in the room with such acrobatic position and style.... EHm..not sure about it but used to

Piles of books with the endless pages to read ehm not..ditch that word..MEMORIZE them..aha..that's better

rapid note copying and exchanging from the geeks... and from those who got brains ...back up for last minutes reading, huh.. that's easy

Assignment submission ......what on earth
and.much more...have to go now,
wait till the next episode.

Me VS Weekend

What a busy week i had.can I say it's weekend..NO I DON'T! worksheets are mounting, laundry're piling and I'm tired . WiFi at Mawar sucks,such a mess and damn slow. I try to open my blog but to no avail but,you what..there's no problem for me to log on to myspace,friendster and google. what a heck is it. Grosteque isn't it? Well,for all PMR candidates gud luck for PMR (if u read your sis blog) It is the day right to give your best performance on your paper and know to measure if your struggling and effort in studies over 3 years are worth.

I haven't phone eat-in almost a month since the eid.I' wondering how's is he right now. Is he okay, have he study well,is he missing me also? injust realize how much I misss him when mom asked if I had ever talk to him this week.Haih.I'm like in amood of missing everyone right now.....really need theraphy for this. I went to N room yesterday and aks her where has she been that day.....and with whom.With such a weird smile and grin on her face I know the clue..Gotcha, again she is going out with you-know who again. Ehm, okay. I'm struggling with my group esssay that night, need to evaluate their pharagraph and revised them to make it better as we need to present it on the other day. I slept late again...just about to close my puffy eyes, angah phoned me....haih, why at this time...but I entertain his call and we had a long chat, some trash talk,eiy he likesto talk on that's stuff,naughty boy..he..he...but I love the way he say it,so cute.You don't got it right..ehm of course not. He reminds me to keep focus on this coming exam and I know both of them aim high for me as they had proved their efffort in the study and able to put in in a higher level now.Even they taking couses that rather difficult and complicated than mine...like I never want to be in if I could to.

H, Big boy and Din pick me up in outside Mawar to PTAR for a group discussion. I plead N to accompany me as she is one of the group members too,even I know she is not feeling very well,you know after the nnight with him walking through the rain ....and now she is dizzy and fever-to-be i think. Such a cruel friend am I? ehm, but I have no choice, a bit scared too, so Im alone.I have to confess that it not really make me ease for being with them as I'm the only guy among the three girls. Got it? Felt a bit awkward but I'm pretend to be okay...H condemned my slaids on the topic that I had done, hate this. He saying that my slaids are too much and too details ...looking at his face with such expression, I felt like want to kick him off .....haiyyak!.. be patient..don't get mad..bahave yourself ..sigh, I told myself. I'm not taking much time to get along with them as we kept discussing on how can we present the topic..and some flabble.
after about 2 hours,we went off the library and have some refreshment at DC. Did I mention I ride on H car,wow that's my first time and that car is too cool to take a leave. that's a part of my schedule taday, a lot more to be written but that's all for now. I need to to something else right now.......

I haven't sent any post since the Eid...and there's many things happened recently. Hre ia the list below for you to know what had happened fews day a go.

To start with, my first thing;
Of course celebration of Eid...and it was tremendously hillarious and such bliss.but many my friends said it was boring empty,lonely and whatsoever..pity huh.Well, it was splendid time for me gathered with all family members..owh, my little cousins..you have grown up.They're the cutey,naughty yet funny.Suddenly me,kak nana and kak hanis became camera addicts.We snaped pictures like-non-stop and i'd snapped over 150 pictures in just two days! Can't wait to show them to angah and along.We also had 'kenduri arwah' to my atuk, moyang and others members that had passed away.NOt to forget the duit raya,me got few raps at the open house and ........of course i banked them to my account.

my second thing
Some of my very close friends will fly to Egypt to pursue the their dream on that popular course-medics. * 'humaira', 'hermione', 'harry', 'thamlika', and 'twin myzah'.'Hermione' supposed to be in matric but when she phoned we few days ago telling she's abroad within 2 days to egypt, my heart stop beating.......can't believe it.There's a pause at that moment.I nearly cried...one of my best pal again.......will leave me alone.Feeling empty inside,couldn't find words to describe all this feeling; happy,confuse, hatred, dismay,all mixed together. this news is not the music i want to listen.even so, we made a vow that as long as we live,no matter what happen, we'll still in touch and value each other.

my third thing,
Pssst........can't tell you ,here.It's scandalously top secret and confidential.

Forth things
We're at the end of semester.Ya Rabbana!i felt like it was yesterday i met you dear friends.. it also marks as the crucial stage for us as the exam and Muet just around the corner,waving us sinisterly.I need to study harder and devoted this precious time more with books than hang out friends( please don't misjudge me,it's true right) I promised to Angah I'll awards him the result with flying colours. let's talk less,work more.Remember what Puan Hamidah said about our group.We're different from the others as they can talk english even better than us.I hope to kill two birds with a stone for this coming exam and pray so i'll be here for six more years in the same course.AMIN.'Man jadda wajada wa man hasoda hasoba'-those put more effort win, those who work nothing lost.

My (what's the number again?)
Dr.hanim turns my life to a nightmare.She asked us to work on endless essays.A good practice actually which i love to do but scare + terrifying to confront her and waiting to be condemned on essay.She's not only spilt those beans but burst her outraged on me/us at that moment if she's not happy with the essay.She mentioned that she's quite dissapointed with our eesay writing.I felt challenged with her sincerely feeling.I don't want her to look us down .Want her to be proud of us.Want to score well in exam.Want to be educationist.Success in this world and Hereafter is the ultimate goal I's seeking now.
Ya Allah,bantulah Hambamu...


My last thing
There's nothing more to write.....enough for today.

Golden Words: Sometimes things are better left unsaid.Only let Him know the thing inside.














take it positively-i told myself.

I have a test tomorrow on Listening and Speaking. A group discussion