Egypt : A love story | 2

This is about going places 1

Jaulah Makam

We’re not exactly been there for a solid a month okay, 27 days of travelling is enough to dry up your wallet empty. We’ve’ gone to so many places even students here themselves didn’t get a chance to go. Anyway, it’s a bit disappointed for us get here on the second day of raya haji..no ticket available. I’m dying to see them slaughter the camel at perakian residency, pity. Not that bad actually because we’ve eaten homemade rending unta (my along and his team cook this cooking!) it was awesomely delicious, the meat warms your body during the bloody winter season. Perakian residency was where we stayed for my brothers living there.

Our first visit was cemetery, cemeteries I means because Egypt is infamous for that. Not just ordinary burial ground but those places are of the sacred ulama’ and scholars. The official visit has to be in these places first before we look upon another. The visit got a name for itself, ‘jaulah makam’ means journey to cemetery. There are many cemetery to visit and we couldn’t finished those even after 2 days journey day and night. I repeat, there’s soO many;here and there, up the town, down the lane, we went in group of 12-14 (can’t remember) zig-zagging on the road. Most of muslim scholars and ulama weren’t born here but settle down in Egypt as knowledge hunter and died here. Egypt offers many doors to knowledge with vast outstanding teachers created endlessly in old times and in the new age, you name it all, Imam Syafie, Imam Abu Hanifah, Imam Hambali ( the moment he died was the day Imam Syafie were born), saydina Hussein, ImamSayyidah Atiqah, Sayyidah Zainab and a patch aren’t just enough! It was a blessing journey, and we could see and feel the holiness from these people. There’s karamah (special rare ability@ gift gifted by Allah) to show His sign. Like Syeikh Imam Salleh Al-Jaafari, He able to turn water in a small ‘telaga’ changed the taste likely as the zam-zam drink with Allah’s will and there we drank, it’s true.. subhanallah..it has the same taste..hmm, I drained the bottle empty.hehehe.. what should we do attending to these places is pray a lot..keep praying your biggest wish and hope because they are where your prayers are most likely to be answered..tempat mustajab doa.. you’re connecting your soul closely to Allah with the blessing HE gave to all ulama’. The feeling was indescribable in words, holiness, humbleness, somber and at a point ashamed of myself for not really taking chances knowing my deen in a thorough way and reflecting life just like they did. What a shame of me.. I’m still an ignorant in a way I didn’t know but now I know it.

the picture on the top is our moment together with parents of imam soghir (the young imam). at the age of 3he memorized the entire holy Quran and it was validated by syeikh from al-azhar for comfirmation to his talent in memorizing quran..sadly he died at the age of 4. He went too soon.. Allah's bless upon him. the small young children managed to do that, but we... at our present life..how many verses have we done?? I wonder what about whomsoever that not even open the quran n know to read it... i wonder..

Hmm… it’s a spiritual journey for me..like washing all dirt in a flowing water…thanks to Allah for this opportunity...it's precious.

Egypt : A love story | 1

Call me missy ‘Slow ain’t updated’ as that’s what I’m thinking when it comes to blogging…. It always take me million years to scribble down the best days or the worst days I went through in life…. Very well, I love to say gimme room to draw my history…… the later it is, the precious it will become..haha…I guess so.

This 2009 shall end beautifully in my memory because it is not as same as the past years I had,-our family is finally reunited! I got 6 weeks period to cheer my holidays at home, that isn’t something new to me of course..but to spend a month in Egypt is something new…magical to say. I have been dreaming about it all my life and finally God approved my request… unbelievable. Then, this is the beginning for a journey to Egypt: A love story.

We’re going to Egypt!! Don’t you know that?? Did I tell you before??? Pardon me, did I just say I’m going to Egypt?? Owh yes! Of course!! I’m almost crazily insane just thinking about it. I was so glad and glad was what I’m feeling at that time. Three of us made our journey; me, my mom and my lil bro…well, he was supposedly not included in the guests of honor because SPM is not far ahead but our plan changed afterwards after mere discussion with the rest of family members, and finally he is in, but only after he done with the exam. Deal!

We booked the tickets via travel agency which is somewhere located in Ipoh. Fyi, to get a fairly cheap price for the ticket is not by buying it at KLIA, instead, it will cost you the most expensive price compared to the travel agency, we saved almost 400MYR for our tickets but the cheapest is to buy them via online but you need a credit card, believe me, me and my mom have none credit card. Huhu..so, there’s some tips for you in buying flight tickets. We’re taking Egyptair which is the cheapest, 3400MYR return ticket per person. Emirates cut your cash deadly I tell you. Don’t go for that. Our journey wasted 8 hours of our time sitting numbly..(luckily there’s soO delicious food and great movies to watch). It is tiring I tell and because we flew at night, the most interesting view I had was just darky black wall outside the window. Not much to tell.

Finally, we safely arrived in Cairo around 7.30am and my heart can’t stop screaming loudly, the most audible sound that only me can ever heard as I saw the glimpse of my 2 lovers!! My bros.. they are always still good looking and handsome, waving happily to us.. heavenly. That was my first meeting with them after a solid 4 years. As we walked closely to each other, he open his arm widely waiting me to fall into his big hug and hissed-‘kak cheek…sampai jugak’. The same hugges, always warm and securing...their smiles that kill every heart...not literary killed okay, no one has died because of smiles.. yeah, you'll use a lot of adjectives and metaphore to describes evrything about your loved ones isn't it..so do I..haha. Not forgotten my mom… we both exchanged kisses on cheeks with my bros. Shortly after that, asking his friend for our snapshot..to capture our moment together..again reunited! there it was, the newly made chapter in our journey- A love story…then hand in hand we walked out of the terminal into the tramco (kind of vehicle, larger than a van) to our new ‘home’……….-to be continued-

is improving herself

It takes me a very long time to write again….words had been written in my brain. Every thought is captured and all the writing visualized in my mind…not in the literary paper. Since my homecoming from a very long break to mother’s country-Egypt…..I now sense the longing I badly miss in this present time…. My body return but not my heart and soul…. My heart pounding…..ventilated like no other, longing the long-love I had and still have… I miss my bro’s so much..LOVE U Darls…

Although busy with pack-programs and visits planned, I managed myself to secretly check my result… it was one of my haunted nightmares I had had in life….the most I could hope is that 3.0 and above...dare not to cross thinking of getting DL (dean list, 3.5 and above). I know that I screwed up my exam, the only subject I thought would survive an A is linguistic…perhaps so. The truth is I scared…………if I disappoint my mother and my 2 lovers..they aim high expectation on their lil sister.

The moment of truth- a second feels like a million hours…. It sucks your enjoyment and happiness living as a man…and yes, it sucks!

Let make it brief…..well I think what had happened was because of my mother’s prayers…and the two lovers.. the reason I got this- DEAN LIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It’s my forever dream! I always wanted it very badly but afraid of not getting any..so, dare not to high hope..alhamdulillah…..Allahu yubarik alaih! I rushed out of from my room and cried out their names to join my rejoice..can’t never forget mom’s respond and reaction after receiving that news…. Heavenly. They kissed me warmly on cheek as they usually do, but that was special…it could not be uttered in words, happiness, satisfaction and grateful..above all, my performance is improving and now I know it is improved, I pray the improvement would not stop here… pray this will continue for the next seven semester..AMEEN

1^st semester in foundation- 3.33

2^nd semester in foundation-3.49

1^st semester in degree- DL (3.5 and above)

This is solely for my mom……..i got nothing to be proud off with this…. I’m working myself constructively because of u…………yes, my lovers toO….I love u….

ya albi nadak

Ya … Allah,
Jika aku jatuh Cinta
Cintakanlah aku pada seseorang yang
melabuhkan cintanya pada–Mu
Agar bertambah kekuatanku untuk mencintai–Mu

Ya … Muhaimin,
Jika aku jatuh Cinta
Jagalah cintaku padanya agar tidak
melebihi cintaku pada–Mu

Ya … Allah,
Jika aku jatuh Hati
Izinkanlah aku menyentuh hati seseorang
yang hatinya tertaut pada–Mu
Agar tidak terjatuh aku dalam jurang cinta semu

Ya … Rabbana,
Jika aku jatuh Hati
Jagalah hatiku padanya agar tidak berpaling pada hati–Mu

Ya … Rabbul Izzati,
Jika aku Rindu
Rindukanlah aku pada seseorang yang merindui syahid di jalan–Mu
Dan jagalah rinduku padanya agar tidak lalai aku merindukan syurga–Mu
Ya … Allah, Jika aku menikmati cinta kekasih–Mu
Janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi kenikmatan indahnya
bermunajat di sepertiga malam terakhir–Mu

Ya … Allah,
Jika aku jatuh hati pada kekasih–Mu
Jangan biarkan aku tertatih dan terjatuh dalam
perjalanan panjang menyeru manusia pada–Mu

Ya … Allah,
Jika kau halalkan aku merindui kekasih–Mu
Jangan biarkan aku melampui batas sehingga melupakan
aku pada cinta hakiki dan rindu abadi hanya kepada–Mu

Ya … Allah,
Engkau mengetahui bahwa hati–hati ini
Telah berhimpun dalam cinta pada–Mu,
Telah berjumpa pada taat pada–Mu
Telah bersatu dalam dakwah pada–Mu
Telah berpadu dalam membela syariat–Mu

Kukuhkanlah Ya Allah ikatannya,
kekalkanlah cintanya

Tunjukilah jalan–jalannya, penuhilah hati–hati ini dengan Nur–Mu yang tiada pernah pudar. Lapangkanlah dada–dada kami dengan limpahan keimanan kepada–Mu dankeindahan bertawakal di jalan-Mu

A poem by : As-Syahid Syed Qutb

feeling inferior...

I put a pit stop in my posting right now.....i was thinking to put a halt on writing this blog .....permanant halt..my passion seems like dead and gone in the desert...hmm...don't have the feeling to pour words like the old times.. i know, people can't stop buzzing 'bout the result...like turmoil in the head..everbody can't just stop asking each other 'bout that. like the usual way i do...waiting for the result doesn't trigger the calmity inside....i will nervous like hell and turn myself into exteremly quiet girl, aloof from anyone else..i just insanely scared...crazily nervous....and blah..blah..blah...


the fact is...i'm a little buddy..soO, if u r not the closest fren of mine ..i hope you won't mind to ask me my result...and I would glad to seal my mouth shut. the other thing is, I'm feeling inferior with my 2 btrothers here..they did awesomely great in the exam...and keeping their records as grand as ever...how am i suppose not to get jealous with them..he becomes the only perakian students that pass the semester with flying colours while his other buddies were stranded.. his course of study even much difficult rather than mine..like people said, if you're passed, you should be grateful enough...hmm..my... he's soO doing great..while me, I do not have a glory to be proud off..and I know there must be something I have to fix within...

dear Allah........please help me...im feeling as pathetic as ever in my study...I'm not going to let down people who love me..there's no way I can do that.....i pray so that this worriness will be replaced with calmity...